I'm Broken

I'm trying to find a way to get better. I'm broken so to speak. Who isn't broken? No one person is 'perfect' or 'normal'. Everyone has something they are going through....my doctor suggested that I blog. Here I am, for all to see! I'm not sure if I'll get any readers or followers, it would be kinda cool I guess. Let me tell you a little about myself.
I'm Little Lou, a nickname I've had for many years now. I'm 31 years old & I've fought breast cancer twice. I won the first battle in 08 and I seem to be winning this round too. I've filled up with alot of emotions throughout this journey.....the good, the bad, the ugly. It's not the bad or the ugly that everyone sees, I hold that in and keep it close to me. I wanna explode at times. I talk to my husband about the bad & the ugly & a girlfriend of mine....we'll call her 'birdie'. Birdie brings alot to the table when I'm down & out. She has overcome an addiction and she is such an inspiration to me. She too is a fighter & she knows exactly what to say to me when I need a pep talk. She's an amazing woman & I'm blessed to have her in my life as my best friend. My other best friend is my husband, luckily we have that bond too. He is my everything. He has kept me grounded, all the while keeping himself grounded without breaking down. O.K. Let's rephrase that....He hasn't completely broke down & stopped. He has had his moments, yet he carry's on. He carry's on for me, for him, for our family. I can't imagine if the rolls were reversed, him with the cancer & I on the sidelines wanting to take it all away from him. We're all dealing with this in our own way. We have all come out remarkable, I think.
Cancer SUCKS!!! I'm wanting to 'set the scene' by going back several years. Right now, present day I'm alive! I wake up everyday Thanking The Good Lord for another day. I've beat cancer once already & I'm beating it again.
I wanted to get the blog started today, to get a feel of it. I don't have much time today to blog, however tomorrow brings a new day with more free time. So for now, as I have been for a while, I'm still broken.
I encourage comments, *if there are any readers* ;) I encourage those who are having a 'rough patch' to keep fighting. Keep fighting because YOU ARE WORTH IT!!  I said earlier I've only shown the bad & ugly to few......I've kept a smile on my face & a positive attitude throughout all the while fighting cancer.  I'm going to open up & share the bad & ugly here in this blog, eventually. I'm very lucky, very blessed & loved. I love life & I will forever be one of those forever optimists! Life is too short to live it any other way. There is always good that comes from something bad.....
Until tomorrow, God Bless :)